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No Hard Feeling

 Have you ever done something to farther someone in their career, life, goal etc. and once they start glowing up they just leave you behind. Forget about you. Act as though speaking to you is a courtesy. 

I'm not sure why but I am seeing this pattern in the "friends" I have around me. Once they receive the motivation, the energy, the help, finance whatever it is that they are looking for they dash. I am then left feeling empty, sad, and left to put myself back together again for it to happen all over again. 

I then find myself feeling like I need to start being real picky with the people I allow to receive my energy. Like that is really a thing. The people I choose to have a relationship past hello need to be a selected few. I have wanted that "Girlfriends" or "Friends" group so bad that I held the door open to anyone and everyone around me. Well that all has to change very very soon! 

In the words of Eryka Badu:

See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
And Granny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't go 'round trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying ta get what you got
I work at pleasin' me cause I can't please you
And that's why I do what I do
My soul flies free like a willow tree
Doo wee doo wee do wee
And if you don't want to be down with me
You don't want to pick from my apple tree
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